myJaxon

Yes, I said my two men. If you haven’t heard by now, Jesse and I had a surprise on Sunday (2-25) - my water broke. After 6.5 hours of labor, Ian Hawthorn was born Monday, February 26th at 5:02am. He was 7 lbs 15 oz and 20.5 inches long. He’s my newest man and is now competing with Jesse for my attention.

This past week has been interesting, exhausting, frustrating, and wonderful. Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday was spent in the hospital recovering from the labor and delivery. We brought Ian home Wednesday and had a very long night. With the new surroundings, Ian wasn’t taking to his crib well and I ended up spending the night with him on the couch since he wanted to sleep on my chest while I was sitting on the couch (yes, sitting, not lying down).

Thursday was another long day. I made my second phone call to my mother around noon letting her know that Jesse and I did finally get some sleep (I had called her at 3am looking for advice) and that we’re getting frustrated with Ian’s nursing techniques and his crying. We were trying to calm Ian down every time he was crying and Mom told us that sometimes you just have to let them cry. So in an effort to get Ian to sleep in his crib, we fed/burped/changed him and then laid him down. He cried for about 30 minutes before everything got quiet. Of course, that didn’t stop me from crying.

Everything was making me cry last night and listening to him and not doing anything was the worst. Of course, he came through it better than I did, but it was still hard. The best thing is that night Ian actually slept for most of the night. Jesse and I still had to get up with him, but it was only three times and those times Ian fed and was changed. There was a good 2-3 hours of sleep between each feeding, so Jesse and I did get some sleep. I’m still exhausted, but I got enough sleep last night that I haven’t been crying at all today and I don’t feel it as much. Don’t get me wrong, I’m tired and would love to get a nap, but I’m not irritable or frustrated or emotional.

Today has been pretty much the same as yesterday, minus the fact that we got a lot of sleep this morning. Ian had his first doctor’s appointment and had all good reviews at about 8:45am this morning. We came home and everyone went back to bed. We finally got up at noon did our routine again - nursing & changing. Ian has been feeding about every 2 hours and then goes back to sleep. We’re trying to keep him up at the moment, but we’re still thinking Ian will sleep tonight like last night. At least that is what I’m hoping.

So that was my week. Jesse and I spent the weekend relaxing and both of us are glad that we had that weekend before Ian was born. It’s obvious that our lives are forever changed and we’re never going to get back to the life we had - where it was only the two of us and we were allowed to be a little selfish. Now we have Ian and while neither of us are regretting it, it is definitely a major change that we are still adjusting to. I have family coming up this coming week to help me out while Jesse goes back to work, but it is going to be strange to have someone at home with me while Jesse is at work.

So here’s my two men and they are dealing better with each other than they both realize.